ajax18 wrote:
I wish it were entirely up to me.
Your beliefs are up to you. Part of free agency.
Well, not according to Selek it doesn't. I have a real problem with that. But from what I know for sure now, with the exception of my favorite scripture, I have no proof to say he isn't right.
Joseph Smith said men are that they might have joy.
You seem to hold some different beliefs than mainstream chapel Mormons. What made you want to try to fit in and how did you manage to do it? Have you ever had to pay lip service to something you did not agree with in Mormonism, just to maintain order and hold the party line? What do you do when you have to teach a class? Have you ever had to testify that you believe in a historical Book of Mormon?
I'm not sure I fit in all places relating to the Church. I have received some rough treatment on LDS run message boards and a contingent of some Mormons would hold that I am not a Good Mormon (or perhaps any kind of Mormon) because I do not hold their same political philosophy.
However, the people in my ward have been very kind to me.
Lip service? I have been able to get by simply stating what I do believe. On the chapel level they do not seem to require an exact recitation of any set creed. Teach Classes? They have never even asked me to speak in Sacrament Meeting. Some years back, folks used to invite me to speak and sometimes offered honorariums to do so. I now enjoy my status as an onlooker and spiritual seeker.
Testimony time is a bit different. I tell of my belief in the promise of Jesus Christ, the loving nature of God and my thankfulness for the atoning sacrifice. It might seem odd, but none would ever call it heresy. Did I mention how nice my fellow ward members are?
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