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ANONYMOUS FEMALE: AGE 50 - 64
household income: $200,000+
education level: College Graduate
member type: Life-long member
prior to crisis: Full Tithe Payer, Regular Attendance at Sacrament Service, Temple Recommend Holder, Adherence to the Word of Wisdom callings held: Young Women’s Presidency, Young Women’s President, Relief Society Presidency, Relief Society President, Primary Presidency, Primary President, Spouse of Bishopric, Temple Worker
I was never inactive prior to learning the true church history. I was born in the covenant, faithful in my youth, attended BYU, married a returned missionary in the temple and raised my children in the church (both of my sons went on missions). I was always a full tithe payer. I never missed church and even attended when on vacations by finding the nearest church to wherever we were at the time. I held nearly every leadership position a woman can hold in the church and served faithfully.
My awakening began with hearing some things about Joseph Smith’s polygamy and went online to prove these things wrong. I quickly learned that they were in fact the truth and then proceeded to learn about Joseph Smith and others’ polyandry, too. That was the beginning of my journey into discovering all of the church history that had been whitewashed and kept hidden from me during all of my faithful years. After this, I simply could not support an organization that demanded complete 100% honesty from me when they had and continued to be extremely dishonest in their teachings and lessons (especially regarding church history and past doctrines).
My husband, who was also extremely active and had held numerous leadership positions, felt like I did once he discovered the truth. Two of my four children have also left the church and the other two are working their way out now, too. Out of seven of my siblings (all serving missions and marrying in the temple), only one of them is still active (and they are only semi-active due to their spouse wanting to attend). All of them have left because of the dishonesty regarding church history, Book of Abraham issues, DNA problems, and other issues with the Book of Mormon.
If the church had been honest with their history and other details from their past, I would have loved learning about these as I was growing up and when I was older. It would have made the church leaders feel more human and full of integrity for me to know their faults and mistakes along with their good qualities. It would have given me hope when I also made mistakes and tried to repent. I would not have stopped attending if the church had simply been honest with me. I believe if they start doing this, they may be able to stop the hemorrhaging of some of their best, most valiant, most educated, and most hard working and devoted members. They are definitely losing some of their strongest members and this will continue because the true information is so readily available to all now. Also, this is affecting new baptism rates tremendously because no one will join a church requiring the time and money demanded by the LDS church without at least doing a Google search. Who wants to join a church that is not honest?
I miss a great deal of what I had when I was an active member of the church, but the truth is very important to me. So is integrity and honesty. I will not go back unless the church leaders start implementing honest information and discussions about its past.
I appreciate your dismay and frustration in finding out the truth about Mormon history, of which I am a long time student. The truth has long been out there, just not very accessible until the Internet. Why on earth would you even consider going back to the Mormon Church? It's very foundation, which is Joseph Smith not some Mormon-only "gospel," reeks with his lies. It is rotted, and shored up by the present leadership who never would have told you the truth if it hadn't been put out there by students of Mormon history, Christian students that is, who worked very hard to expose Mormonism for what it is. A hoax!
You know, as an educated woman, you might want to consider the real Jesus Christ - not the first spirit baby born of polygamous gods on some planet near Kolob, a star that has never existed by the way. The real Jesus has nothing to do with the Mormon version, the Joseph Smith version. You will find a welcome, and spiritual home, if you just take the step to search out a truly Christian Church, where you will find the cultural things you might miss about the LDS.
Frankly this site is not very wholesome, and is mostly made up of disgruntled Mormons who now trash all religions, especially Christians, because they found out that they had been deceived by Joe Smith. There are Christian sites where you might find some input from people who love Jesus Christ and aren't out to deceive you. Just thought I'd mention that, as I feel you have been through the wringer. May the Lord lead.