Sono_hito wrote:Simple Gaz. Once your out and you realize all the crap. Its a pretty good laugh to read one. I've now gotten to the point where i can listen to a talk by GBH and have a good laugh at all the obsurdities.
There was a time in my youth when I would laugh in harsh disparagement at the thoughts/beliefs and actions/practices of others.
I did so, in part, thinking it somehow a reflection of my supposed superiority--a way of demonstrating to myself that I was somehow above and better than those I was jokingly disparaging.
Later, in a moment of honest introspection, I realized that my laughing at others was really, and ironically, because of my own low self-esteem. I was hurting, and I wanted to hurt others for being seemingly better than I, and I was trying to tear them down to my size--or so I supposed.
In truth, all that my derisive humor accomplished was to lessen me in their eyes as well as my own.
I figured out that if I wanted to think better of myself, I needed to do just the opposite from what I had supposed. I needed to behave in respectible and responsible and functional ways towards others, and I needed to become a better person. In other words, rather than laughing at and tearing others down, I needed to love, value, and respect them, with the desire and healthy expectation that others would return the same. To the extent that I have done so, I have felt better about myself and I have improved my relationships with others.
I hope that those similarly inclined to how I once was, can learn from my past mistakes and use instead the functional strategy I later discovered.
Thanks, -Wade Englund-