personally have faith that Jesus is the Christ but it is faith. I do not have perfect knowledge of this. Nor do you. Nor do any LDS though they think they do.
I think your fundamental, core, primary challenge Jason, is to overcome this thoroughgoing and pervading hubris. This is pride, if I may say so not meaning to give offfence, in a most aggressive and implacable form, and I think it is precisely for this reason you are having your troubles with the principle of testimony, and why prayer, up to this point, has not worked for you.
I have no idea what species of arrogance or presumption could exist in your mind such that you could make statements about the metaphysical actualities and perceptions of others
for them, but apparently such has come to exist in your own inner world.
I know Jesus is the Christ without any possible doubt. I know it directly and completely. I know that his church is on the earth, and that Joseph Smith was his Prophet. I know these things fully and without conceptual ambiguity because
God himself has revealed them to me. I understand that you do not know, and I appreciate that, but I'm not sure at all I understand or appreciate how you think you can claim what is essentially an oracular insight into what I or other Mormons know or don't know based upon your own subjective experience of
not knowing.
I do appreciate the troubles your having, but to reconcile them, I think your going to have to relinquish a great deal of the wall against doing it the Lord's way you seem to have built around the solution. You already seem to have made up your mind what the answer to your problem with revelation and testimony is, and that seems to be that the principle is, in essence, fictitious. Of course, if you've already found the answer, what point is their in the further exploration of the questions?
If you'll forgive me, I also don't really think you have a very good grasp of the meaning of the term "faith" as understood in the Restored Gospel. You are attempting to extract faith from revelation and knowledge and isolate them, and that's going to further wreck any attempts you might make to resove your questions and doubts because they cannot be so extracted and compartmentalized.
Loran