Various Options for those struggling with Faith
Posted: Thu Dec 07, 2006 6:46 am
Below is a quote from educator and philosopher Bill Killpatrick that I thought might make for an interesting discussion:
What should we do if we wake up one morning and realize we don't really believe what we used to?
One option is to do just "stay the course." There are lots of people who do this. Discovering incongruities is a burden, threatening to take us to unpredictable places - so they simply go back to sleep. Some may even become zealots in the hope that the louder they proclaim their loyalty, the better it will stick. This is the Ted Haggard school of religious observance, filled with people who tell you to bear your testimony until you mean it.
Another option is to split. Once that bubble has burst you simply cut your losses and move on. This is an easier position if you don't have anyone who will be hurt by your decision to pull the ripcord. It helps if you have little invested in the Church. A lot of people go inactive within the first year for precisely this reason. When Mormonism stops looking like the missionary discussions, they grab their warranty and demand a refund.
A third option is to focus on the problem. That's what I've tried to do. That's the reason for all of these pregnant epistles. I've been trying to work through these issues and figure out what to make of the gap between the testimony I once had and the convictions I've come to have.
A fourth option is to conclude that the Church is true and get on with your life.
A fifth option is to conclude that the Church is not true and make a break - clean or otherwise. If the Church's teachings are at variance with what you really believe, it's only a matter of time before the dissonance becomes too loud to ignore. It may be necessary to separate oneself from a corporatist social institution that takes it upon itself to decide what truth is and to brand the membership with its iconic brand name and logo.
A sixth option is to transcend. This is perhaps the most mystical of the options, one that seems to "stay the course" while confronting the doctrinal and practical issues of "the gap." It essentially says that gap discoveries are inevitable, that there is no "true Church" out there to find, that the real benefits of Church activity are the same regardless of what you believe, and to take the position that Mormon mythology is no truer or falser than anything else. It's a tradition. It's show biz with Bibles and Books of Mormon. Mormons give ear to the lie that God came down to Palmyra and hovered just out of reach of the boy prophet, but it's no bigger a lie than the ones about Adam, Noah, Abraham, Moses, Elijah, Jesus, Paul or Muhammad.
The sixth option says that good and bad doctrine are about as meaningful as squabbles between Star Wars geeks and Trekkies. What's true is the stuff behind the lie. Every great story - whether it's in Mormonism or Christianity or Judaism or Islam or Hinduism or Buddhism or Protestantism or Secularism - is a narrative explanation of truth. Truth is invisible. You can't see it. All you can do is sense it in the links and connections between the multitudinous parts of our existence. But through great stories, we hear the voice of God, we see the dignity of man, we learn the lessons of life.