Jesse Pinkman wrote:I'm just curious, and would love for you to explain a little further your ex-wife's "toddler" traits.
Well, lucky for you I'm MAKING AMERICA GREAT AGAIN and I love to bitch about my ex-wife. So here goes:
I don't believe she was raised with any sense of expectation from her parents growing up, so she was completely new to the concept of accountability when she married. She had the sense of entitlement that comes along with being a woman who wanted to marry, be given a home, have some kids, and never have to think about where money comes from because 'that's a man's responsibility', all the while being overwhelmed with not having the lifestyle she envisioned herself having. The mere idea that she could actually be at fault for anything was an offense too egregious to ponder and a hurt so deep that the cross she constructed and bore, though claimed to be hundreds of pounds of pine, was more diamond-encrusted broach to be worn with a Shakespearean sense of pain that would make Meryl Streep blush with shame for having entertained the notion of acting as a career.
If she and her mother secretly conspired to secure her a credit card without my knowledge, she tells a tale about how she was put in a manipulative economic situation by an uncaring and controlling man. The fact that I was a junior enlisted man supporting a family on a small paycheck wasn't a factor to be considered. Living within one's means and balancing a checkbook were concepts that produced confusion and sadness.
She never really believed in her own agency. She believed in cosmic forces like fate and patriarchy, because nothing she ever did was her fault. When urged to go to school she would enroll and drop out. When urged to find a career she would cry and claim she worked when she was a teen and she put in her time. When confronted with the reality of women having successful careers in the military or whatever, she would burn with hot shame and claim some reason why she felt her place was in the home, while doing nothing in the home other than feel sorry for herself. The fact of the matter was she was lazy, and it was a depressing reality to her that she'd never have access to the wealth and lifestyle that would distract her from herself. This has been true to this day.
I wouldn't have really cared post-divorce who she was or what she did with herself, except her laziness and desire to be passive-aggressive toward my kids because they weren't the post-divorce cash cow she thought she could get through them affected their development. For example, with me they had clearly defined responsibilities regarding school and chores, were enrolled in extracurriculars, and ate healthily. With her she just let them exist, fed them crap food and tons of sugar, and did nothing to mentor them. I mean, they had chores with her, but it was so she didn't have to do any housework. She didn't set chores as a joint family responsibility so they all could take pride in a clean home; she worked them like free labor so there was no sense of pride in it for them. So it was a perpetual yo-yo thing with them that regressed their development. Very, very frustrating.
Anyway. I could go on for pages because that's how divorces go. Oddly enough with my second wife I went waaaaaaaaay the other way and married a high achiever, but that's another story. We divorced, but to this day I have nothing but good things to say about her and I wish her the best in her endeavors (and believe you me she has done well for herself).
- Doc