Doubting Thomas wrote:He obviously has other problems. What problems do I have that I need to fix first? Why am I the problem?
Problem #1: you're over-thinking this whole thing and may need a clinical diagnosis to tell you why. You have higher expectations (in one dimension) than Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise combined with no realistic means to achieve what you want. Most people, when they get desperate, lower their expectations. Your expectations seems to rise, like the guy I told you about, in proportion to your desperation and your inability to achieve the object of your desire. You aren't responding to the situation the way a rational person would. You need to see a psychiatrist or a serious psychologist and get a diagnosis; not a basic therapist. I went to a psychiatrist in college once because I thought I had all kinds of mental issues and basically she told me to pound sand. Wouldn't even schedule a second appointment. If you have something, a half-decent shrink will get to the bottom of it pretty quick, and if you don't they won't waste your time. So what has to be fixed first depends on that diagnosis.
problem # 2: Assuming you have no issues a psychiatrist cares to treat, and assuming you aren't trolling, then you have a major issue lying to yourself. All your stupid citations to psych literature to justify hooking up with an 18-year-old are so dumb, that at this point I'm not going to respond to them anymore. You're attracted to hot young women, big deal? Go to a strip club or something. I mean, most people just stop at turning their base desires into heroic visions of romance and love, reading into a partner or potential partner all kinds of attributes and lofty ideals for the relationship when all they really have is a physical need. That's lying to oneself, but it's a normal version of lying to oneself. I've never seen, until now, a hospital drama spun from base desires, where the protagonist lay in medical jeopardy, not awaiting a lung transplant, but awaiting a hot teenage girl be given to him to fulfill his physical needs otherwise he may die. On the stupid meter it's a 9.5, and nobody on the entire Internet is going to be on the side of the protagonist of this drama. So either look for more direct ways to get sex or seriously up your game so that you have a realistic chance. Otherwise, enjoy complaining and what looks like trolling, even if it isn't.
problem #3: Your job. You work a lot of hours, don't seem to get much out of it, and you don't even have medical insurance? You're clearly a smart guy, and so get a better job that has insurance. There are lots of female recruiters so it's even an excuse just to have a conversation, get out of your comfort zone a little, and break out of the dead end you're currently in to some extent at least.