Therapy in session.

Post by **_Imwashingmypirate** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 12:09 am

Hey guys, I said I would open this thread. Just like a group session but online.

Post by **_Imwashingmypirate** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 12:16 am

Ok, I feel stressed. Like my life sucks probably because it does and nothing is really all that good, but I will have to deal with it. I am a bit pissed about the temple and confused. I went home and was told that most things I have looked at are rubbish so now I have to get dates and facts to find out really. I know it will do no good because I feel as though I am being pulled to and fro with little choice in what I want. I don't know what I wan't.

I find it hard to have a proper discussion with you guys because I am scared. I am scared I don't have the energy if I were attacked, but I think I have learned that on here I won't really be attacked because no one takes me serious enough to see validity in anything I write and take it as rambling. It probably is, but there isn't any point getting into deep conversation because it makes me feel horrible and sad that I get scared. I didn't get to say bye to my mum properly and this makes me sad. I am dreaming about my dad and this makes me worried. And seeing the "ad hom" crud makes me nervous.

I know this will make little sense, especially to those who know nothing or little about me.

But I am going to scream in my mind, so cover your ears...

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
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Post by **_Moniker** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 1:18 am

Break up your arrrghh... 'cause I have to scroll back and forth to read your post. And I'm just too damn lazy to do that. :)

Oh, and here's my arrgh. Just a lil one.. 'cause not really feelin' the angst. Sorry. Pretty weak. But, that's all I could muster!

Post by **_Gazelam** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 1:21 am

Pirate,

The secret is, ignore the attack, and focus on the issue at hand. Besides, you barely know these people, and you never see them in real life, so what does their personal opinion of you matter to you anyway? While you can be silly, you have also shown yourself to be intelligent. Post a great insight into an issue, and people will remember that far more than the will the silly attack that someone made at you.

Channel a little Joan of Arc and show some inner strength.

all the best

Gaz

Post by **_Imwashingmypirate** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 1:35 am

I hate my life.

ETA Oops, freudian slip, just change that.

Post by **_Gazelam** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 1:39 am

Imwashingmypirate wrote:I hate myself.

Why? whatd you do?

Post by **_Moniker** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 1:40 am

Okay, I have a few things to say here! !! !!

Pirate, you are STUNNINGLY intuitive, inquisitive, generous, loving, humorous, creative, and I ADORE you! You are my favorite poster on this board! You're just one of my favorite people EVER!!!

Don't let anyone rain on your parade. Sheesh! I take you seriously. If anyone attacks you then they don't appreciate your UNIQUE personality. Truth be told most of the people that have an issue with you probably haven't had a serious case of giggles or a good screwing in their entire life.

Okay -- I ranted. :)

Post by **_Gazelam** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 1:45 am

Pirate,

In ten years your going to Cherish these days of your youth. Be sure to keep a journal, even if its just printing some of your posts and sticking them in a scrapbook. Youll get a nice giggle out of them then.

You are loved here, even if you feel a tad scared of a few of us now and then

Gaz

Post by **_Imwashingmypirate** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 1:46 am

I am not really bothered about what people on here think, it kinda applies to my whole life. When people attack each other it gets to me and I have had a crud day anyway which only makes it worse and I am stressed and ill. I hate my past, yet I don't hate the people that made it the way it was. I am tired but can't sleep. I don't like that I constantly feel the need to get things out. I just want to be normal. People at home think I am content and happy. Maybe it is just something I eat.

Post by **_Moniker** » Mon Mar 31, 2008 1:51 am

I am uncomfortable with people attacking each other, also. It's sort of something that stresses me out...

I'm sorry you're having a crud day. I'm sorry you don't feel "normal"... What makes you feel abnormal, Pirate?