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I am back... I feel real and feel like I can discuss things again. How cool. I haven't been able to do that for a long time.

Got your meds leveled out eh?

I wish someone would prescribe me some meds! I've asked! Apparently, it's normal to be pissy, grumpy, and vindictive when going through a divorce.... whaddya know? I think I already moved through all the other stages....

urgh...

Glad you're back, Pirate. :)

Yeah, if my meds are natural and prescribed by my brain. It would seam I am more settled as are my chemicals. hehe. Mon, be positive about your divorce, rather than and end, it is a new beginning and when it is all over it will be well worth it. ;)

I am feeling positive about my divorce... really, I am. Just not used to feeling so cranky...

If I weren't me I wouldn't want to be anywhere around me, sometimes... :)

I just feel on edge, lately. For some reason I am filtering things in an odd way. I absorb things that just irritate me, and drown out everything else. Not certain why this is, yet, I recognize I'm doing it. I zone in on things that upset me -- I so wish I could stop doing that.

Trying to zone in on positive things.

I flipped my lid last night. Really I did. Looking back I was slightly irrational, but how would you feel if a moderator wrote things in your name insulting other people just for a kick, then banned you because you got annoyed at them doing it for the second time in a day. Then when you came back on you were getting told off for using a name like faggot even though you changed it and agreed to stop spamming and the admin wouldn't accept that their mod was in the wrong and after considerable arguing and being told you have no rights to fairness and you know nothing about how unfair the world is, when really you couldn't know any better how unfair life is, they decide they will talk to the moderator, you say ok fine, then they make a comment that strikes a nerve regarding your parents then you get banned for being angry at that. I went mad. I eventually apologised when the admin finally let me talk. I guess I let it get to me.

I think we can all feel this way mon, I know I do but most of the time it is covered by crazy hyperness. You are going through transitions, which I believe happens to everyone. I think you are cool. Really cool.

I gotta admit that if a mod used my name to write insults to other people I would be more than slightly irritated -- that's just insane for a mod to do that. I wouldn't want to post on a board where a mod would do something as such.

Apparently I annoyed him. It was a chat room. It was really bad. He took control of others names to insult me too.