I guess what I want to ask you, and if it's not too personal for public posting, who is God and what is God about?
I like to look at the Gospel of Luke. Luke was a physician and focused on the healings. Are you familiar with the fact that as LDS we don't wear crosses. That was difficult for me at first because as a Christian I love to think about the atonement. But those who think Jesus was just about turning the other cheek, suffering through life and being killed for his efforts miss the point. His kingdom was not of this world, but the next. My focus on easter is Christ rising from the tomb with a glorified, perfect, resurrected body. There's an LDS hymn about this,
Jesus once of humble birth
Now in glory comes to earth
Once He suffered grief and pain,
Now He comes on earth to reign
Once rejected by His own
Now their king He shall be known
Once upon the Cross He bowed,
Now His chariot is the cloud
Once all things He meekly bore
But He now will bear no more
Think of the joy when He healed the blind, the lame, and the mentally ill. My error was to question how He did this. My error was to wonder what possible gift in eternity could be worth a family friend of mine back in Memphis in OD school losing their 7 yoa daughter to cancer, while her Dad was going through the most brutally competitive, expensive, and difficult academic fight of his life. What matters is that the Lord has promised us that He will make it worth it for us not whether or not we can understand how He does it. The gospel doesn't have to be complicated. A simple faith and simple belief such as this can take one all the way to the Celestial kingdom. A simple faith in which we take the Lord's word for it, can reach all the back from eternity to right now and bring a happiness that you can find nowhere else.
And when the Confederates saw Jackson standing fearless like a stonewall, the army of Northern Virginia took courage and drove the federal army off their land.