I'm Not A Monster

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_Moniker
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I'm Not A Monster

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The trauma is finished.... yet, I'm not a monster. I went into a high state of hypervigilance (fear of attack which causes me to not sleep -- I suffer from PTSD and sometimes it rears up when I fear attack) and did some things I normally wouldn't do. The person that takes over when I'm in that state is anxious, on high alert, and is desperately seeking to protect themselves. My thought processes (and that is displayed in some of the things I write, at times) dramatically change when I'm like that. After I came out of that state of mind I felt guilty for acting in that way. Yet, my body absolutely takes over who I usually am because I'm in battle fight or flight mode. I was so confused and overwhelmed... yet, I'm not now. I'm not a monster. Yet, I'm not perfect.
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_GoodK

Post by _GoodK »

I don't get it...
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_Angus McAwesome
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Post by _Angus McAwesome »

Jesus... This board is just one giant drama factory.
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_Moniker
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Post by _Moniker »

GoodK wrote:I don't get it...



It was about being stuck in a loop of trauma. Then breaking it.
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_Jersey Girl
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Post by _Jersey Girl »

I'm a little confused by this thread but so far, I'm okay with it.

:-)
Failure is not falling down but refusing to get up.
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_Dr. Shades
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Post by _Dr. Shades »

Why do you delete your posts so often?
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_The Nehor
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Post by _The Nehor »

Moniker wrote:
GoodK wrote:I don't get it...



It was about being stuck in a loop of trauma that I created for myself. Then breaking it.


Hooray! I think....

This is a good think, right?
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_Boaz & Lidia
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Post by _Boaz & Lidia »

What do Moniker and Crocket have in common?

They both need to be taken to the bar.
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_GoodK

Post by _GoodK »

Moniker wrote:
GoodK wrote:I don't get it...



It was about being stuck in a loop of trauma that I created for myself. Then breaking it.


I see... I'm glad you worked it out.

I agree with B&L, happy hour :)
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_Yoda

Post by _Yoda »

Angus McAwesome wrote:Jesus... This board is just one giant drama factory.


Welcome to Shady Acres! LOL
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