Vulnerability. That seems to be in short supply in these parts. Thank you for sharing your personal story.The Stig wrote: ↑Fri Apr 25, 2025 12:20 amYes. So much so that as my testimony began to falter, I became suicidal when I could not seem to get the Heavens to communicate with me. For a full year, I got up every morning and willed myself to keep believing, even though the facts did not support such a belief. I lost my marriage, many friendships, and the equivalent of many, many days of time trying to recover that testimony. All I could think at the time was that there was something seriously wrong with me or that I was engaging in some terrible sin (neither was true) because I couldn't get an answer to a single prayer to reaffirm my belief in the Church's truth claims. When I finally admitted to myself that I didn't believe in the Church, it was less than an hour later that I could no longer justify belief in any form of a deity. Why? Because the Church had done such an excellent job of helping me pick apart any other religious belief system (I served my mission in Tennessee), that I realized every single one of them was filled with nonsense.MG 2.0 wrote: ↑Thu Apr 24, 2025 11:59 pmThe OP presents a current presentation Jacob made. I'm assuming that by this time you've viewed it and given it careful consideration.
May I ask you the same question that I've asked Marcus and IHQ?
Did you ever have a firm faith and belief/testimony of the mission of Jesus Christ and in God the Father...at any time? Meaning before or after your loss of faith...assuming you had faith at some point/time in your life.
This is directly connected to the latter part of Jacob's faith journey. Do you feel he is mistaken in his 'pyramid' analogy and the unfortunate possibility that many people have inverted that pyramid and ended up losing their faith when it might have turned out differently if they had centered on Christ and Heavenly Father and developed a solid belief/faith in them to begin with?
Regards,
MG
So, the next time you arrogantly affirm that "we" (as exmos) never actually believed, why don't you remember me and people like me who desperately wanted it to be true and then lost everything because we just couldn't believe it anymore. While you're at it, you can shove that condescending attitude about this topic straight up your ass. I, and I alone, am the sole expert on how strong my belief was and you have no business, whatsoever, telling my otherwise.
May I follow up? When you said that you tried to "recover that testimony', what was that 'thing'...lack of a better word... which you believed you had that you then lost? You then use the word "reaffirm". Reaffirm what? Again, something you had? If you had something then lost it does that mean it never existed in the first place? I'm asking, truly wanting to know what your thought processes were. Did you later question your non-belief in the church because of what you had once had and apparently 'knew' it?
Regards,
MG