I didn?????t go on a mission = punishment/pain

[_Yoda]

I wish you luck in your situation with your wife. For what it is worth, I divorced my wife and left the church at the same time. Amazingly, my world got alot warmer and brighter. That was 12 years ago an I have NO regrets. Best of luck to you.

Jonah...I'm a hopeless romantic. PLEASE tell me that you met and married someone else who truly appreciates you. :)

[_Jonah]

I wish you luck in your situation with your wife. For what it is worth, I divorced my wife and left the church at the same time. Amazingly, my world got alot warmer and brighter. That was 12 years ago an I have NO regrets. Best of luck to you.

Jonah...I'm a hopeless romantic. PLEASE tell me that you met and married someone else who truly appreciates you. :)

**sigh**

Get some tissues ready Liz.

As I was divorcing my ex I received an email from a gal I dated 20 years before as a freshman at BYU. She too was getting a divorce from her child molesting TBM hubby. I broke up with her so many years before due to distance, we were dating others, etc. I also felt that her being born in the church and taught her whole life to marry an RM, I wouldn't be a good fit for her (my future wife was a convert and I didn't think would have such issues). I broke her heart. I was her Prince Charming. She married someone totally opposite of me, never got me out of her head, and suffered through years of marriage.

After she contacted me and poured her heart out I realized I would NEVER find another like her. I pursued her but she was hesitant...she didn't want to risk me breaking her heart again. I fought for her, and eventually won her trust and love. I never used to believe in soulmates until we got back together. We adored each other and she made me want to be a better man.

I told her we could marry after I sold my business so we could be financially secure. That was easier said than done. One day she became ill. She had difficulty breathing and abdominal pain. After a month of doctor visits she was hospitalized. They discovered that she had cancer in her liver, pancreas, lungs, etc. Another month later...I lost her.

We had four great years together...the best years of my life. A year later I sold my business. She showed me how to love and be loved. She used to tell me how lucky she was to have me, but in realitry...I was the lucky one. **sigh...miss you babe**

[_Dr. Shades]

Ah geez Jonah, that was tough to read.

[_RockSlider]

... My experience has been different.

Not any different than mine (52 now ... no mission, felt it all my active years)

[_RockSlider]

... The dissonance needs to be resolved.

lol --- just be patient with it all ... it will not desolve quickly, some of the deep convictions at the root of much dissonance will take a long time to deal with

[_Yoda]

We had four great years together...the best years of my life. A year later I sold my business. She showed me how to love and be loved. She used to tell me how lucky she was to have me, but in realitry...I was the lucky one. **sigh...miss you babe**

Oh, Jonah...That is heartbreaking. I am so sorry. *HUGS*

At least you were able to share some time together.

You're a good man.

[_Logan5]

Though your wife may not realize how painful and cutting her remark was to you, I do know. I feel for you. For me it was like being stranded on an island by myself. I had assumed that my wife had a full understanding of why I wasn't an RM and stood by me in my decision. To find out later those weren't her feelings........uggggghhhhh......quite a blow below the belt.

It is like being stranded on an island. I’ve lost a kind of trust with my my wife.
I have no way of knowing down the road it will reoccur.

We had four great years together...the best years of my life. A year later I sold my business. She showed me how to love and be loved. She used to tell me how lucky she was to have me, but in realitry...I was the lucky one. **sigh...miss you babe**

I told your story to my daughter. Neither of us will be able forget it.

Logan