Hello. I was just saying to someone in messages that I know I haven't replied to people's sent messages like I should. It's not that I don't care about you or that you care about me. I appreciate you all SO much. If you see me posting when I owe you a message reply it's only that I'm trying to get AWAY from the current situation. Escape what I can't escape otherwise because I'm living it and I get so tired of thinking about it. Currently worn out, worn down, painful, dizzy, feeling debilitated. Can't keep all the balls in the air but I strive forward. Don't worry about me. I never lose hope. EVER. Working on what I've been diagnosed with which could actually be the very light at the end of this terrorist creepy as hell tunnel I've been in for 2 years.
It makes too much sense. Hopeful. Working on it. Hate it but doing it. As always, I press on. Your support of me has been humbling and encouraging.
I think you are God's boots on the ground for me. I love you for your steadfast caring which I sometimes feel is lacking in real life. Just know that and be sure of it.
Oh by the way, here's a fair representation of what I look like for Shades.
